haiz haiz.... i really can't cope with sch and work...its sooo tiring.... i've got sooo many assignments...and it really affects my mood coz i am sooo tired..... i dun have enough sleep... even if i try and sleep early, i can't sleep... i either hear call bells in my sleep or my lecturer talking... and the next thing i hear is my alarm clock ringing..... so many things in my head... i wish i didn;t start studying.... i'll probably be more relaxed now....i need more time.... just need more time.... i hate this lifestyle.... i work from 7 to 4.30...then i go to sch which starts at 6 and it ends at 9...i reach home at 10 sometimes 11... by the time i sleep, its 12... and i have to wake up at 5... and if i have an assignment to hand up, i sleep later..and i still have to wake up at 5.... I NEED MY LIFE BACK!!!..... _____________________________ i am so upset with myself... i really am.... _____________________________ i'm sry... i'm damn pissed.... i just hate it when ppl have phones and dun reply or dun pick up....its damn annoying..... i'm not saying, pick up or reply fast... if u're busy msg at least after a few hrs....what is sooooo difficult???..... u pee every few hrs rite? URGH!! _____________________________ i'm not in a good mood... so if i say anything wrong, i'm sry.... _____________________________ a piece of advise boys and gals... dun be sooo sensitive.... its damn annoying too.... _____________________________
~ { 10:11 PM } reflections of you and me;
Monday, April 20, 2009
on this day,
i saw a father who couldn;t leave his son alone even for a minute.... a mother who wanted her son no matter what condition he was in... a brother who had to stay strong for his parents...
it has been 3 yrs and i still cry over it.... i still wonder why GOD hadn't given u a longer life... why he had to take u away from us sooo soon... why couldn't i have had more time with u....
i have stepped into the ICU many hundred times as a nurse... but as a sister, i feared soo much....
we miss u soo much... :'(
~ { 9:26 PM } reflections of you and me;
Saturday, April 18, 2009
haven blogged in a long time.... busy at work and too lazy nowadays... have got sooo many assignments to do also... just handed in a 2500 word assignment last tues... have got another 2500 word assignment to hand in on 2nd of may.... haiz haiz...
i seriuosly need a break.. so tired of everything already....
i'm so irritated.... different rules for everyone... so unfair... i really tried my best... but it doesn't seem to work... sometimes i wonder whether its my fault... or is it urs...
at least i'm happy something is working out.... i miss those days...
i love thiru kumaran and sharania.... love love love... i'm crazy.....
rajay got into an accident... and now he's got a new van... GT****E... can't remember the number... lol... hope this van is more lucky... i miss the old one thou.. ;)... i guess that van holds alot of memories for many ppl....
sch is starting next week... going to be vry tiring...
shamintha.... u're more busy than me.... and i'm working and studying... POS you.... please meet soon...
gin and mel... MIA... date me.... lol...
VIKI.... meet soon for ice cream... more gossips to share... lol....
SD and sanjeevi... have fun with the gals... lol....
~ { 5:03 PM } reflections of you and me;
Thursday, March 26, 2009
i had one patient.... came in for cancer of the stomach.... went for removal of the stomach... and came up to my ward... was with us for a week....
for the 1st 4 days, he was completely bedridden... couldn't clean himself up.. couldn't change his own diappers.... couldn't do anything... the nurses took care of him...
we -gave him medications -gave him IV antibiotics -did daily dressings coz he had a fucking big hole in his tummy... -changed his diapers -helped him walk -fed him when he could finally eat.
and today he totally pissed me off. told the drs that they saved his life and the nurses did not do anything......
WTF.... should have just sent him home after the OP. see who would have cleaned his white backside for him....
then after a while he asked for help to change his diapers... and i told him to call the dr who saved his life.... maybe he could help.... ______________________________________
patients.... haiz haiz.... we try and help them and what they do is just make life difficult for us... irratate us... make HORRIBLE demands.... what has the world come to... they should be happy they are still alive.... ______________________________________
when ur patients dun understand u, u expect the people around u to understand rite... haiz... i guess its just a joke to them....
nurses either become porn material or they are shit cleaners or maids... WE DUN SAVE LIFES.....
then they should have more drs coz they save lives what....
lets just say a patient collapses in a ward... the nurse sees it first and we start the CPR first... if we were to wait for the drs to come and start the resusitation, u would probably already be in heaven and be flying around with ur great and great great grandparents....
WE DUN SAVE LIVES!!!..... WE DUN!!! WE DUN!!!
trust me... if we wanted... we only need 10 mls of air in a syringe and an IV plug.... u'll be flying....
~ { 11:22 PM } reflections of you and me;
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
i hate u... i really do... u just make my life miserable.... thats all u do... sometimes i regret knowing u.... money does not come easily.... if u have it, then spend it.... dun go around spending other ppl's money.....
its really stupid.... its also really embarressin.... __________________________________
everything seems low... ther's nothing to be happy about... last time, no matter what happens in my life, i always knew that my friends will always by ther.... but recently, so many things have happened and i dunno anymore.....
haiz haiz.... i'm really trying to help.... but nothin seems to work... __________________________________ work!!.;.. feel like quitting!!!.... __________________________________
school!!... haven started on my assignment... haven started reading.... haven done anything else..... :(.... __________________________________
i have sooo many things to handle in my life.... i cant handle ur life as welll... so give me a break will u??? __________________________________
~ { 10:51 PM } reflections of you and me;
Thursday, February 19, 2009
HYPOCRITE!!!...... ________________
happy anniversary.... i love you!!....
~ { 11:52 PM } reflections of you and me;
Sunday, February 8, 2009
heyhey....
i'm at work now... i only have 4 patients... thats why i have the time to blog.... actually i'm sitting inside a patients room and blogging... lol... tranfusing platelets... sitting here for 1 hr...
am bored.... i've got to sit here for another 15 mins them i'm done with the platelets.... and i will pass report and then i can go home... YAI!!!...
starting classes officially on monday... classes on mon, tues, wed and fri.... so sharania and thiru,,,, WE CAN MEET EVERYDAY!!!... lol..... i'm sure u guys miss me alot!!!.... hahaha...
think i'll end up concussing on friday... coz i'm morning everyday and i have class on most of the days.... haiz haiz.... ______________________________________
sometimes i wonder whether i made the right choice.. it always turns out to be wrong.... hmmm.... only time can tell..... ______________________________________
ppl are so weird nowadays.... they just behave so childish... making a big issue over small small things... they have to grow up.... if they continue to think like that, things will nvr turn out the way u want them to be.... _______________________________________
if u want something,,,, go for it all the way..... dun stop halfway and cry over spilt milk.... its really stupid..... _______________________________________
GO GET A LIFE!!!.... AND STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE!! _______________________________________
msgs to ppl-
thiru- study study study!!!....
sharania- we seriously need to get more friends....
kumaran- got your tabla skin already......
DON- missing u!!!....
seelan- ling time no see......
Viki- another accident.... 4th one... and i'm still counting.... lol...
v.murali- NEED A NEW HAIRCUT... something more decent....
sanjeevi- MIA!
Rajay- u need to rest.... u thin u're superman ah??....
SD- got new gf!!... but she's got some attitude... chinese... FINALLY!!!... lol...
