everything that happens has a reason to it..

2009-04-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

haiz haiz.... i really can't cope with sch
and work...its sooo tiring.... i've got
sooo many assignments...and it really
affects my mood coz i am sooo tired.....

i dun have enough sleep... even if i try
and sleep early, i can't sleep... i either
hear call bells in my sleep or my
lecturer talking... and the next thing
i hear is my alarm clock ringing.....

so many things in my head... i wish
i didn;t start studying.... i'll probably
be more relaxed now....i need more
time.... just need more time....

i hate this lifestyle.... i work from 7 to
4.30...then i go to sch which starts at
6 and it ends at 9...i reach home at 10
sometimes 11... by the time i sleep, its
12... and i have to wake up at 5...

and if i have an assignment to hand
up, i sleep later..and i still have to
wake up at 5....

I NEED MY LIFE BACK!!!.....
_____________________________

i am so upset with myself... i really
am....
_____________________________

i'm sry... i'm damn pissed.... i just
hate it when ppl have phones and
dun reply or dun pick up....its damn
annoying..... i'm not saying, pick up or
reply fast... if u're busy msg at least
after a few hrs....what is sooooo
difficult???..... u pee every few hrs rite?
URGH!!
_____________________________

i'm not in a good mood... so if i say
anything wrong, i'm sry....
_____________________________

a piece of advise boys and gals... dun
be sooo sensitive.... its damn annoying
too....
_____________________________

2009-04-20T21:26:00.002+08:00

on this day,

i saw a father who couldn;t leave his son
alone even for a minute.... a mother who wanted
her son no matter what condition he was in...
a brother who had to stay strong for his parents...

it has been 3 yrs and i still cry over it.... i still
wonder why GOD hadn't given u a longer life...
why he had to take u away from us sooo soon...
why couldn't i have had more time with u....

i have stepped into the ICU many hundred
times as a nurse... but as a sister, i feared soo
much....

we miss u soo much... :'(

2009-04-18T17:03:00.002+08:00

haven blogged in a long time....
busy at work and too lazy nowadays...
have got sooo many assignments to do also...
just handed in a 2500 word assignment last tues...
have got another 2500 word assignment to hand
in on 2nd of may.... haiz haiz...

i seriuosly need a break.. so tired of everything
already....

i'm so irritated.... different rules for everyone...
so unfair... i really tried my best... but it doesn't
seem to work... sometimes i wonder whether its
my fault... or is it urs...

at least i'm happy something is working out....
i miss those days...

i love thiru kumaran and sharania.... love love love...
i'm crazy.....

rajay got into an accident... and now he's got a new
van... GT****E... can't remember the number... lol...
hope this van is more lucky... i miss the old one thou..
;)... i guess that van holds alot of memories for
many ppl....

sch is starting next week... going to be vry tiring...

shamintha.... u're more busy than me.... and i'm
working and studying... POS you.... please meet soon...

gin and mel... MIA... date me.... lol...

VIKI.... meet soon for ice cream... more gossips to
share... lol....

SD and sanjeevi... have fun with the gals... lol....

2009-03-26T23:22:00.003+08:00

i had one patient.... came in for cancer of
the stomach.... went for removal of the
stomach... and came up to my ward... was with
us for a week....

for the 1st 4 days, he was completely bedridden...
couldn't clean himself up.. couldn't change his own
diappers.... couldn't do anything... the nurses
took care of him...

we
-gave him medications
-gave him IV antibiotics
-did daily dressings coz he had a fucking big hole in his tummy...
-changed his diapers
-helped him walk
-fed him when he could finally eat.

and today he totally pissed me off. told the drs that
they saved his life and the nurses did not do
anything......

WTF.... should have just sent him home after
the OP. see who would have cleaned his white
backside for him....

then after a while he asked for help to change his
diapers... and i told him to call the dr who saved
his life.... maybe he could help....
______________________________________

patients.... haiz haiz.... we try and help them and
what they do is just make life difficult for us...
irratate us... make HORRIBLE demands.... what
has the world come to... they should be happy
they are still alive....
______________________________________

when ur patients dun understand u, u expect the
people around u to understand rite... haiz... i guess
its just a joke to them....

nurses either become porn material or
they are shit cleaners or maids... WE DUN SAVE
LIFES.....

then they should have more drs coz they save
lives what....

lets just say a patient collapses in a ward... the nurse
sees it first and we start the CPR first... if we were
to wait for the drs to come and start the resusitation,
u would probably already be in heaven and be flying
around with ur great and great great grandparents....

WE DUN SAVE LIVES!!!.....
WE DUN!!!
WE DUN!!!

trust me... if we wanted... we only need 10 mls of
air in a syringe and an IV plug.... u'll be flying....

2009-03-03T22:51:00.002+08:00

i hate u... i really do... u just make my life
miserable.... thats all u do... sometimes i
regret knowing u.... money does not come
easily.... if u have it, then spend it.... dun go
around spending other ppl's money.....

its really stupid.... its also really embarressin....
__________________________________

everything seems low... ther's nothing to be
happy about... last time, no matter what
happens in my life, i always knew that my friends
will always by ther.... but recently, so many things
have happened and i dunno anymore.....

haiz haiz.... i'm really trying to help.... but nothin
seems to work...
__________________________________

work!!.;.. feel like quitting!!!....
__________________________________

school!!... haven started on my assignment...
haven started reading.... haven done anything
else..... :(....
__________________________________

i have sooo many things to handle in my life....
i cant handle ur life as welll... so give me a break
will u???
__________________________________

2009-02-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

HYPOCRITE!!!......
________________

happy anniversary....
i love you!!....

2009-02-08T13:05:00.002+08:00

heyhey....

i'm at work now... i only have 4 patients...
thats why i have the time to blog.... actually
i'm sitting inside a patients room and blogging...
lol... tranfusing platelets... sitting here for 1 hr...

am bored.... i've got to sit here for another 15 mins
them i'm done with the platelets.... and i will pass
report and then i can go home... YAI!!!...

starting classes officially on monday... classes on
mon, tues, wed and fri.... so sharania and thiru,,,,
WE CAN MEET EVERYDAY!!!... lol.....
i'm sure u guys miss me alot!!!.... hahaha...

think i'll end up concussing on friday... coz i'm
morning everyday and i have class on most of
the days.... haiz haiz....
______________________________________

sometimes i wonder whether i made the right choice..
it always turns out to be wrong.... hmmm....
only time can tell.....
______________________________________

ppl are so weird nowadays.... they just behave so
childish... making a big issue over small small things...
they have to grow up.... if they continue to think like
that, things will nvr turn out the way u want them to
be....
_______________________________________

if u want something,,,, go for it all the way.....
dun stop halfway and cry over spilt milk....
its really stupid.....
_______________________________________

GO GET A LIFE!!!.... AND STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE!!
_______________________________________

msgs to ppl-

thiru- study study study!!!....

sharania- we seriously need to get more friends....

kumaran- got your tabla skin already......

DON- missing u!!!....

seelan- ling time no see......

Viki- another accident.... 4th one... and i'm still
counting.... lol...

v.murali- NEED A NEW HAIRCUT... something more
decent....

sanjeevi- MIA!

Rajay- u need to rest.... u thin u're superman ah??....

SD- got new gf!!... but she's got some attitude...
chinese... FINALLY!!!... lol...

gin and mel- BUSY AT WORK!!!......

kanna- stop lazing around.... OMG....

vasugi- u owe me one day's worth of slp... lol

2009-02-06T23:53:00.005+08:00

i wish last week nvr happened.... haiz haiz....

it upsets me when i think about it.... i wish

things will be back to the same.... i hav vry

little time left.....;'(

why did things have to happen this way?..

some ppl are just shameless....

things ppl can do to jepardise other

ppl's lives.... i feel sad for u,,,...

THIRUKUMARAN...... STUDY PROPERLY...

i'm goin to be just beside u...

I WILL STALK U!!!.... HAHAHAHAHAHA.

blady lucky plaza.... urgh!!!.... quit all of

u... QUIT!!!... go back to wher u came

from!!!.......

SD... i need the crutches.... i will msg u

when i need them.... u're giving them to

me for free... i'll give u prawns.... LOL...

i miss u guys.........

date me!!!...... ;)

2009-01-29T02:57:00.002+08:00

3rd night.... 1 more night to go... couldn't
slp in the day... phone calls and irritating
work to do last minute..... URGH!!....

feeling alittle better....

by the way, when i say i say that

i need more space and i need 02.. i mean

i need oxygen not an O2 phone...

AIYOOOO...... lol....

i miss sleeping at night... its always

the best... haiz haiz... just one more

night and 5 hrs to go...

my parents are comin back on feb 6..

can't wait for them to come back..

so that i dun have to do the house work..

LOL... ;)

i'm freezing... its soo damn cold...

okok... better get back to work....

byebye.....

2009-01-28T03:25:00.003+08:00

i haven blogged in a long long time..

think the last time i blogged was whn

i was on night shift... and that was 3

weeks ago.... tired tired tired....

i feel breathless... really breathless....

i feel sooo cramped up.....

i wish i could explain more.... but i

really dunno what to say...

random things come up and they

affect u alot... sometimes u know that

whatever he or she says is true but

u just dun want to accept it.... haiz...

and u live in denial!!.......

my body is seriously wearing out....

i always feel so lethargic and tired

and painful bodyaches... need to go

get my whole body checked.... maybe

i'm suffering from acute illness.... lol....

i want a holiday... free from everything...

headaches, parents, work, random thoughts...

I NEED IT BADLY!!!....

2009-01-08T05:27:00.002+08:00

3rd night today... damn tired....

the ward is more or less settled...

thats why i'm blogging now... sick and

tired of attention seekers...

OMG..

i'm suprised what ppl would do just to seek

attention... sucking up... boot licking... i

was gonna say something more vulgar,

but i decided to stop myself...

everyone is working hard.. everyone is

tired... not like u're the one rite?...

urgh!!!...

_______________________________

overlooked somethings... or more like

some ppl... took them for granted...

really appreciate what they did.....

thank u... really love u guys....

_______________________________

kumaran is finally an army man...

he booked in for the 1st time yest noon..

can't wait to see him bald... lol...

the he'll finally know how my dad feels...

lol...

_______________________________

so far the new yr has been good... but

somewhat i feel like i'm cheating myself...

aunty rethi said and thiru emphasized..

" why do i like to hang out with ppl who love

to hurt me?"...

hmmmm.... i'm confused too....

_______________________________

i'm goin back to work now... blog tmr if i

have the time....

2009-01-06T04:15:00.002+08:00

1st night..... sooooo tired.... one old delirius
aunty shouting away... i dun understand
her, she dun understand.... BIG PROBLEM!!
she refuses to slp.... urgh!!...

3 more nights to go... damn tired now... feel
like sleeping... thats why i'm blogging... to keep
myself awake...

last sunday, was aunty shantha's reception....
i did her video montage for her... we had dhol
players... who else could it be rite??... rajay!!!..
from SDS aka singapore dhol squad aka
singapore dumb association (sharania's idea)

kumaran and thiru joined him as well... a,shantha
enjoyed her self...

we even took the sound system from Mastana...
setup was done by rajay, shinda and jack... while
rajay stayed back with us... shinda and jack left
for impt business (GOLDFINGER)... hahahahaha

rajay is now known as bear and the bangra man
who is apparently goin to host a bangra night for
all the ladies from the centre.... LOL... OMG...

we've all been invited over for dinner at a.rethi
place... can't wait!!... :)
__________________________________

last friday we had a little get together at west coast..
it was kumaran's farewell b4 he goes to army...

ppl who were came- uma, sharania, thiru, don
indra, eva, raghu, rajay, kumeresh and obviously
kumaran....

it was a fun night with a little bit of baileys...
kumaran enjoyed himself, he's leaving on wed..
we won't see him for 2 weeks plus i think..
haiz haiz.. we'll miss him....
___________________________________

cant wait for friday!!... :)

2008-12-21T22:44:00.003+08:00

i know u care, i know u love me...

but dun u think that there's a limit to all this?

u can't control my every move....

i need some space....

________________________________

u just dun understand.....

if i was really such a person,

i would have said yes long ago and then end

up hurting everyone around....

think i wouldn't love to?

________________________________

i wander why i think that the whole family

problems are on my head... but they literally

are.... and my mum is not making it any easier....

think my mum needs communication lessons...

even my dad thinks so....lol....

________________________________

and i think my brother is up to something....

when its my day off, i'm goin to follow him

around...... lol... ;)..

________________________________

its over!...

________________________________

feel broken down my body aches

my heart, it bleeds from past deeds

can't stop the tears, they fall like rain

the words are spinning round my brain

so scared and feeling so alone

the coldness fills my every bone

no food no sleep, can't think at all

each way i turn, another wall

this darkness haunts my very soul

my world seems dead i've lost control...

2008-12-19T21:04:00.004+08:00

Every kiss is a first my love, each kiss

a silent sentence, only our hearts can understand.

That 1st kiss said I LOVE YOU

The next said said I'll BE THERE

The third said I"M YOURS ALWAYS

my heart replied i have you and then i'll never

leave and the third kiss said it all...

- anonymous

2008-12-16T17:42:00.002+08:00

i'm gettin my bonus this month... but to
i dun get to keep anything... this is a sacrifice
that i've got to make to study... hiaz haiz... the
only thing that i get to keep is my monthly
salary....

met thiru n kumaran and viki and her bro
yest... we went to watch movie... haha.... it was
a good movie but i nearly fell asleep coz i was
tired after mornign shift...

meeting them again today... kumaran is getting a
new tabla and the guys are gonna jam.. hmmm..
meeting them 2 days in a row... not so bad afterall..
LOL...

thought i'll get bored... hahaha... ok sorry... i'm
kidding..... still waiting for the 2 gundoooos.... :)
might be meeting them again tmr...

my ward is a madhouse now... more like a nursing
home... i've got at least 10 patients who have stayed
there for more then 2 months... i finally transfered
one of them out today....

can't stand it.. and worst of all.... they're all old
and demented...URGH...... okok... thats it... not
gonna vent anymore....:)

cant wait for new year... :)

2008-12-13T17:36:00.002+08:00

haiz haiz..... i'm feeling down.... i miss

sharania, thiru, kumaran, don and seelan...

:'(

this weekend would probably be the

worst weekend if i continue to feel like

this... i guess it all started last night..

my sleeping time has totally gone

haywire.... i was awake till 4 am and today

i woke up at 2pm... SHIT!.. i really wanted

to have the macdonalds hotcakes this

morning.... but i didn't even get to see the

morning sun........

i feel so down.... i dun feel like staying at

home and at the same time i dun feel like

goin out.... i'm so confused....

everyone is having so many expectations..

i cannot live up to all. of it... i'm sorry....

i'm human too u know....

i just need thiru kumaran sharania don and

seelan... they'll probably make me laugh my

head off... and make me feel alot better :)...

miss them... worst part is that i just met then

last monday.... lol...

i need some space and i'm not a punching bag..

sadly i've become one....

2008-12-11T05:05:00.002+08:00

3rd night.... 3 more hours to go... haiz

damn tired.... feel like knockin out... past

2 days have been eventful... vry eventful

actually.... haiz haiz....

if only money could be plucked from

the tree... haiz haiz... for this one

reason, i suppose my parents ROCK!!..

lol....

i'm stoning already.... haiz... and i've got

to go to SIM tmr to make payment for

sch fees... orientation is in feb and i start

sch in feb... haiz haiz... tired...

okokok... gtg... need to go take blood for 5

patients... bye... will blog tmr...

2008-12-09T03:26:00.002+08:00

1st night.... 3 more nights to go...

so tired... it feels lke my 2nd night already..

coz last night we were all at the airport

sending kumaran off to Korea!!....

i was ther with thiru, kumaran, sharania,

don, seelan, raghu and rajay.... we

went to the airport at abt 12mn...

thinking that kumaran's flight was at 4...

BUT, his flight was only at 8am... time

passed really fast thou... we were all talkin

non-stop and laughing... seelan couldn't

stop talking... hahaha.... wait till madhu

finds out abt shakila and nadiah!!...

lol....

i want to go on a holiday.... i NEED a holiday...

i FEEL broke too.... haiz haiz...

its only the 9th... 16 more days to go...

________________________________

i'm happy the way things are goin...

________________________________

quarreling everyday... feel quite

sick about it... haiz haiz....

________________________________

i've lost it... i did enjoy... i did love it...

but u do realize its all DID rite??...

need some time i guess....

________________________________

i need a break.... just like how u need

space,, i need space too...

________________________________

some ppl just need a taste of their

own medicine...

________________________________

2008-12-01T10:02:00.002+08:00

sat was such a tiring day.... ran around
so much.... morning was the tea ceremony...
i wore a white dress.... ;) my phone cable is in
cousin's place... can't upload photos yet..:(

then we went to the salon to do our hair....

evening, was the banquet in holiday inn park
view.... guess who i met ther?... murali holiday...
lol.... food was good.... stayed ther till like 10...

met thiru, sharania, don, kumaran, seelan..... at
west coast....

then was suppose to go to DXO... with my cousins...
but,,, ther was a punjabi band playing ther that
night.... met some friends (rajay, shinda, razia, Jas,
Jack, kevin, Milan, KDD, Jem, Pinde, Meenal, Sevak,
J2). okokok... not some.... many....

the whole punjabi community was ther... too much
for the indians.... so we went to harrys.... lol....
i've got sooo many pictures... but i can't upload....
urgh!!!....

2008-11-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

having that combo... fever, flu, cough and sore
throat... feels horrible... bodyaches... just have
to work 4 one more day... then i'll be off for 2
days... haiz, wher i'll be running around again....

feel soo tired... guess its the bug, thats been
passed around... got it from my cousin.... i'm
morning shift tmr and i dun FEEL LIKE GOIN
TO WORK!!....

after wrk, meeting bobo akka, vasugi and aunty
for some last minue shopping... hope that ends
fast.... the tea ceremony starts at like 8am on sat...
have to be at bedok by 7am.... no slp again....

then in the evening, the banquet... hopefully it
finishes early.... want to meet the guys and
sharania at kent ridge park(DON's fav)....
i really want to meet them.... but no promises...
after this week i'll be free... :).....
__________________________________

should i be myself and be nice to u...

should i be a bitch and giv u a taste of ur

own medicine???....

hmmm...

i'll have to think about this... coz if u

had really meant it, then u wouldn't

be behaving like this.......

____________________________________

i miss the past... i guess everyone is feeling

the same way... haiz haiz.... i guess some ppl

have goals in life and some just need and love

the company.... :)

_________________________________

dun make the same mistake that i did...

friends will always be friends...

eventually it'll be u making the decision,

and it'll be u who will get hurt...

think about it...

its not a joke to laugh about,

its ur life!!....

________________________________

i wish i could just run away...

2008-11-19T00:11:00.002+08:00

these past few days have been sooo tiring...
working nonstop... and the ward has become
sooo busy.... haiz haiz... its like a madhouse
nowadays......

busy doing the montage also.... i thought it
would be easy to do it... but... its not... coz,,
i have to come back frm work to do it,, and
staring at the comp for so long after u've
had a tiring day at work is NOT EASY...

but nonetheless,, i'm tryin my vry best.....
really hope they like it!!!...... ;)
________________________________

i miss those days.... haiz haiz... when

we used to be damn close... now, it just feels

like we fight almost everytime we meet...

and it feels so different....

we've got to work things out if we

want everything to be like before....

__________________________________

i really wish i didn;t have to make

any choice... i'm just not ready yet... and

it feels like shit making hasty decisions...

why can't they just wait!!... forcing me all the

time.... wish they would just leave me along...

its my life... MY CHOICE!!...

2008-11-16T20:44:00.007+08:00

weddings weddings weddings.... this month is full
of weddings for me to attend... ;)...

30/11/08 - ambikai weds veera

29/11/08 - my cousin's chinese wedding ceremony..

23/11/08- cousin's indian wedding ceremony...
_______________________________________

15/11/08- malini weds kugan....

this is the both of them... look so cute together...:)

___________________________________

me and niva...

_____________________________________

me and sharania... for ambikai's wedding...
we're gonna switch colours.. i'm wearing black and
she'll be wearing yellow... lol... preplanned....

______________________________________

this is kumar.... he's 30... works as a teacher...

teaches kumaran maths... speaks french...

says jewel palace as "G-world"palace... lol....

looking for a prospective bride... lol... thinks

me and sharania are the most fun ppl he's ever

met... and said that he saw a different side of himself

when he was with us... lol....

Bhaiya!!... lol...

___________________________________________

lookin forward to all the other weddings.... can't wait... ;)

i love weddings... uncle and aunty cried... said that they've

married their 2 daughters off.. and that they've got no

more daughters..... so we've decided that the next wedding

in their family would be KUMARs....... lol....

2008-11-06T23:09:00.005+08:00

i'm tired... tired of everthing....

u say alot of things...

but i feel like u dun mean anything...

u're not bothered abt anything...

its just about u and how u feel....

i'm getting sick of it...

i dun feel anything anymore...

i just say it for the sake of saying it...

its like my heart is immune to it....

i'm not goin to make any decision now...

nothing!!...

i just need to rest...

i'm sooo tired... i need a break....

i need a break from everything...

from family...

from work....

commitments...

friends.....

really can't handle this anymore....

i get palpitations sometimes....

and i get terrible migrains....

think i'm either goin to die of a

heart attack or some kind of brain tumour....

real soon....

haiz haiz.....

its been 3 years.... and u still haven

got over it... u're still soo traumatised...

seeing u like that makes everyone's heart

ache...

your parents are crying for u every

day.... they've lost one... do u want them to

lose another?... think about it.....

we all love you!!... and we're just a phone

call away!!.... :)

2008-10-28T18:00:00.003+08:00

_________________________________

my diwali gift from RAJAY....

he drew this picture!!!...

tks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-27T01:57:00.002+08:00

RAJAY IS GOIN FOR

BRAZILIAN WAXING

SOON.... AKA LAWNING

THE YARD!!!!.....

DUN ASK ME HOW I KNEW

THIS!!....

;)

(RAJAY DARED ME TO DO THIS...)

happy diwali!!!

2008-10-24T10:37:00.003+08:00

everthing has come to a breaking point....

things that i thought would last didn't....

the only thing i can think of now, is to **** ****...

and dun blame me for doin this coz u

made me do this....

______________________________________

think its so easy to come back?.

the scars are still here...

and all that u want is for things to be back

to normal... isn't that too much to ask for?..

think u've tried sooo hard??...

i did that for months....

_____________________________________

60 months..... short period?...

just left... yeah!!... u would rather

have him.... then anyone else...

GOOD!!... now u have each other..

and i have become a laughin stock!.

____________________________________

compared me all the time.... nvr

thought of me as a person with feelings....

nvr though of what ive done... compare

compare and compare!!!.....

and now her mum is dead and she's

living in a broken family!!... i dun wish to

do the same.... comapare all u want...

i just hate u!!......

___________________________________

people whom i thought will be ther

forever. hmmm.

...

___________________________________

the feeling is mutual sharania...

and u're NOT FAT!!!!......

OMG.... i'm so gonna kill u...

____________________________________

i'm sorry i'm doin this to you... i really

dun want to do this to u anymore...!

____________________________________

JINX

2008-10-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

no more heyhey... coz i hate thirukumaran....
urgh urgh!!!.... he's a piece of SHIT!!!.... urgh!
lol....
________________________________

people make decisions for a reason...

ppl do things for a reason...

u have to let them make their own decisions..

if u dun want them to leave, just say that

u dun wan to leave...

all those reasons...

TEMPORARY FRIENDS????....

(does temporary gfs count??.....)

OMG!!!.

(no offense to anyone!!)

u're gonna die one day anyway!!...

why make friends??...

why get married??...

why have relationships???....

hmmmm.......

i'm confused!!!!.......

maybe u can enlighten me??... what

you were trying to say was right!!

but how u said it was wrong......

this was said with loads and loads and

loads of luv!!!!.... ;)

_________________________________

we always come along crossroads.....

and we dunno which path to take...

it is goin to be a difficult decision!!....

u cant please everyone...

sooo....... i'm sure u'll figure out what u

have to do!!... :)...

_______________________________

EMONESS ATTACK!!!....

what is with everyone!!...

move away???.....

URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!..

i know i shouldn't be saying anything

about this... i'm the biggest culprit!!...

BUT... STILL..... moving away is nvr

the best decision!!... and i'm saying this

coz i know!!!....

just coz u did it once doesn't mean u

have to do it again u know!!.. coz ppl

are different an they are in different

situations..

if u really want to help, empathize!!...

_____________________________

i'm a jinx.... bad things always happen

around me.... lost job... lost contract...

lost friends vs passion!!.... moving away!!

forgetting house keys!!... spending $45 on

cab!!... getting wet in the rain!!.... always

quarrelling with parents!!... having bad

days at work!!... feeling broke!!...

haiz haiz!!.......

______________________________

tired now!!... goin to slp... good nite

2008-10-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

heyhey....
haven blogged in a while... busy busy....
and sick sick sick.... still haven recovered... :'(..
had a great weekend... lol.... yet again... another
awesome weekend!!..... :)

was morning shift on sat.... after work,, went
over to my aunt's place... prayers....met up with
all my cousins... haven met them in a long long
time.. ;) missed vasugi thou.. she had to go for
tution!!.....

after prayers,,, went over for liwen's birthday
chalet... met most of my working colleagues
there.... she was saboed.... lol... she had cake all
over her!!.... i hope she had fun!!!!....

on sunday... i had an awesome morning.... the
met sharania and the guys and other gals to go to
sentosa for EVA's birthday beach bash!!... it was
really fun...

ppl who were ther- thiru, sharania, kumaran, don,
eva(obviously), sai, murali, ragini, ragini's friend
(can't remember her name), indera, janaki and
rajay(came later)!!...

we started off by playin captain's ball... and i got
tired already!!... lol.... then sharania got thrown
into the water... lol.... damn funny!!... and i also
thrown into the water!!..... URGH!!....

then we played taboo.... it was alrite!!.. I"M FLAT!!
thanks ah kumaran!!!.... urgh!!!....

after that we went to wash up then to railway
to have dinner.... good dinner... then rajay
dropped all of them at yishun and i went with
him to the yishun safra!!.. really funny!! the
oldies were so cute!!... dancing their heads
off!!!.....

even after the show ended, they still carried
on singing... kept on singing... did not want to
give the mic back to the DJ!!!.... lol... took 1 hr
to get the mic back!!...

then i headed home... had so much of fun!!...

thiru said: for the 1st time, i enjoyed everyone's
company!!....

2008-10-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

heyhey....
haven blogged in a long time.... long long
time..... lol.. just been really busy lately... with work
and everything else... and was also lazy to blog....

firstly it was kumaran's birthday last sat... we went
to narayana mission home to do seva for the elderly..
it was reall nice... i met this old uncle ther... his name
is manickam... so cute... fell in love with him... lol..

then we headed over to marina square and have
dinner at thai express.. it was only 4 of us... thiru,
kumaran, sharania and me... don had house bhajans..
couldn't come...

after that we went over to clarke quay... we went to
crazy elephant to have a few drinks... drinks were
awesome.. especially the shots.... quick f*uck!!... lol..
kamikaze.... lol.....

kumaran enjoyed his birthday... i really hope he did...
:)
______________________________________

i also had an awesome sat.... lol... even thou i was
really sick... the stupid combo... flu, fever, cough and
sore throat!!.... the guys performed at arasakesari
temple in woodlands for navarathri..... they played
well..... :)... good job guys!!.....

rajay and jaswin came over to watch the performance
... so sweet of them.... i hope they enjoyed themselves...
after the navarathri performance.... we went over to
one of rajay's show in woodlands... it was so nice...

it was like a self made club in CC... lol... and everyone
was just enjoying themselves... dancing.... having so
much of fun... wow!!.... i enjoyed myself so much!!..

after the show,,, all of us headed to alameen to have
dinner.... i was sick... didn;t eat much... sharania also
didn't eat... was dieting i think,,, little confusion btw
cheese pratas and plain pratas.... lol... was all sorted
out!!..... :)

after dinner we headed back home.... in all it was an
awesome day.... i'm glad my friends finaly liked
someone that i introduced to them.... hahaha... lol...
FINALLY MAN!!... phew!!!....

good nite!!!..... lol....

2008-09-17T04:59:00.002+08:00

heyhey....
haven blogged in a while... i'm on
night shift... its my 2nd night today so tiring...
i feel like sleeping... thats why i'm blogging....
tired tired tired....

lookin forward to this weekend.. :)... i'm goin
to be OFF for 3 days and i'm goin to go MIA...
seriously... MIA.... coz after this weekend....
i'm goin to have to work nonstop....

past 2 nights, its been quite peaceful... i hope
it stays the same way for the next 2 nights...

i miss the boys and sharania... haven met them
in a long time.... haiz haiz...
________________________________

sometimes i dun understand what is wrong
with u... haiz haiz... i hope u get over it!!...
________________________________

by the way, if u intend to pick a fight with some
one after reading my blog... by all means... :)..
cheers......

2008-09-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

heyhey...

i had a really good weekend... really

fun... nothing could have ruined my weekend...

;)...

050908-

went for a movie... with rajay... we watched

forgetting sarah marshal... lol... really funny

movie... the movie reminded me of rajay's

love story!!... i think u need a holiday RAJAY!!

lol.....

060908-

me, sanjeevi, sd and rajay were suppose to go

for dinner and go to the beach bar in east coast..

but it was raining.. so we headed to rajay's office..

had dinner with his friends...

there were surinder, his wife, his 2 kids who are

simply adorable, Jack and Jas. i was teased abt

the "you're crazy"... lol.. then jack and surinder's

family headed home....

the rest of us stayed on the office to wait for the

rain to stop... but then we decided to get drinks

and just stay on in the office...

surinder's daughter... ravneet... she's really

adorable... she's got beautiful dimples...... lol...

CHILD ABUSE!!!... they were bulling rajdev..

so poor thing... lol.....

then we had our own club...
__________________________________________________________

switched off all the

lights... had music on... switched on the lasers...

there was smoke... we all got cosy on the couch..

under the blanket.... it was really nice.....

i enjoyed myself so much... the sparkling juice

was awesome.... lol... the guys were having

something else... sd and raj couldnt stop.... lol...

i had soo much fun.. even thou alot of things

happened,,, nothing spoiled it coz i had soo much

fun.... ;)...

captivating moments!!!... lol.... thats why i enjoyed

myself!!... ;)... jas was askin me weird questions...

that i didn;t answer... rajay didn't let me answer...

lol....

in all.... i had soooo much fun.... wow... there's another

word to describe this... but m not goin to say it!!....

lol.....

070908-

went over to vasugi's house... we had a good 2

hr talk... she told me about all the things that

has been happening in her life.... and i told her

everything that has been happening...

interrogation!!.....

i got a birthday present... got the samsung

touch screen mp3 player.. got the 4gb one....

varathan anna bought it for me... ;).......

YAI!!!!!........ hahaha thanks anna.....

2008-09-07T03:13:00.003+08:00

ppl make mistakes.... its alrite.....

u forgive them and u accept them back

into ur lives.....

BUT

what happens when they make the same

mistake over and over again?...

what do u do?..

accept them?...

its a question thats running thru my

head now....

2008-09-04T04:30:00.002+08:00

heyhey....
3rd night... 1 more night to go...
my hp died on me... i went home yest after
work, plugged in the charger... but forgot to
switch the power on... URGH!!...

n i can't even talk to my idiot!!.... :(... i feel
so alone without my phone... haiz haiz...
hope time passes faster... i want to go home
and switch my phone on.....

spoke to sharania today.. she wants me to go
to rome with her and other friends... she
said that the packages are quite cheap.. i'm
lookin forward to it!!!... in desperate need of
a holiday....

Japan, Rome, Bali or Star Cruise... wher ever!!...
i dun care!!... just need a holiday... working
is seriously tiring...!!!....

btw, rajay got attached and broke up within
one day.. damn funny!!... i seriously feel for
u!!... lol... i couldn't stop laughing when i
heard the story... hahahah....

poor rajay!.. must be depressed!!... lol... dun
worry rajay!!... we'll find someone else k...
lol...
_______________________________

i miss sleepin at nights... nothing beats it!!...
and lately its been raining... even nicer to slp..
one more night to go... can't wait for friday..
;)

Jack and Jill went up the hill
to fetch a pail of water
Jill forgot to take the pill
now she`s got a daughter

LOL.... nonsense la u!!... IDIOT!

gtg now.. blog tmr!!.. :)

2008-09-03T04:17:00.002+08:00

heyhey....
am doin night... so as usual i'll go
missing... and u'll be able to hear from me
on friday... lol... always happens... today is my
2nd night... couldn't blog yest.... was really
busy... :(

i feel really sleepy now... can't seem to keep
my eyes open.. thats why i'm bloggin... lol..

just read all my friends blog.. hmmm.. alot
of things are goin on... some are really sad..
depressed... some are having an awesome time..

as for me... i'm havin an awesome time... dunno
why... feel like nothing could be better... :)..
haha.... i miss hanging out with the guys la...
i met them recently... but that was only thiru,
kumaran and sharania...

DON and SEELAN are missing... haiz haiz...
don is busy in school i suppose and seelan??
hmmm... soccer??....

thing i want to do-
1) go to japan as planned...
2) go on a cruise
3) start saving... lol.. nvr happens
4) go on the flyer...

okok... gtg now... blog tmr... if i've got the time..

2008-08-30T14:10:00.014+08:00

pictures... pictures... pictures...

they speak a thousand words.....

my rose... chosen by raj and rajay

i felt like a kid... my balloons......lol...

can't believe that my parents and my brother kept

the secret from me!!... lol...

rajay's van... its full of lights..... best picture i

could get...

RAJAY!!!!.... some off my friends want to get

to know u know... they also want flowers.. lol

my best friend...... tks.. really enjoyed myself..

fix ur tabla k... dun throw... i think u understand..

my favourite manjan male!!... lol... i killed u huh?..

hmmm..... we'll find out.. won't we??....

___________________________________

read the next post... thats wher my compo is... lol..

2008-08-30T12:18:00.000+08:00

heyhey....
this post is goin to be long... so beware!!..
lol... even thou my birthday was long over... i had the
best birthday suprise... all planned by the notorious
raj and rajay... and mentally encouraged by sd!!...

see this raj said that he was gonna bring me for dinner
yest... so i said ok... and just to let u guys know.. i've
been on mc yest coz of migraina n giddyness...
thats another story for another day...

he said that it'll be just me and raj and rajay.. so i was
ok with it... then i was suppose to meet rajay and raj..
but last minute raj had something on and said that he'll
be late... so i met rajay 1st.... ;)

got flowers.... was a blue rose... i took pictures.. but
sadly.. pictures are all with raj!!... i will upload them
soon.... :)

called sd to ask him if he was comin.... acted really
suspicious... lol... nvm.... haha... so rajay drove me
down to holland village... he drove me the long way
saying that there was a really big traffic jam in AYE..
the real truth,, i'll tel u latr....

when he was driving ther,, rajay recieved calls.. hmm
work huh rajay??... or just raj???.... lol.... we reached
holland vilage...we were walkin to the restaurant...
then rajay suddenly stops and says that he has to
blind fold me.... WAT!!!..(exact words)lol....

he made me walk blindfolded all the way to restaurant
k... OMG.... so embarressing... ppl were probably
lookin at me... BUT I COULDN"T SEEE... SO WHO
CARES!!.. lol....

i walk inside the restaurant... party poppers go off...
and i see my mum, dad, kanna, sd and raj sitting ther..
lol... WAT A SUPRISE!!!... OMG.... rajay thot i was
goin to curse!!..(luckily i didn;t)... lol...

was really happy... apparently.. many more were
suppose to come.. but its alrite... i was happy just as
it was... had a really good dinner... think my dad was
the happiest... coz he really wanted to celebrate my
birthday... but i didn;t let him coz of many reasons...

so here is the funny part... we finished eating... i wanted
to pay for the bill... the waiter was really cute.. maybe
he was new... he came up to me and asked "NO CAKE"
lol... suspense OUT!!...

actually the suspense was on raj and rajay... they were
busy plannin in the toilet how to bring the cake out!!..
and i already knew abt it... my bro and me were laughin
out heads off!!...

so i had my belgium chocolate cake... it was really good...

so now... u know why rajay didn;t take the aye and
brought me the long way??.. raj was late... suppose to
be at the restaurant earlier... so rajay had to kill time..
lol...

all the impt calls that he receives pertaining to work..
all RAJ!!... i can't believe u wanted to drop of the
speaker at the STOP sign.... it was actually wher he
blindfolded me.. the "STOP" sign..... i became a speaker..
lol....

so in all... it was really good plannin... and i totally
enjoyed myself... best birthday... coz i celebrated wif
all the friends during different times... august 9....
and yest!!....

and i hav to make a speech!!.. i thank my dad my mum
and my brother for just being ther.... also thank raj and
rajay for plannin everything.... an sd for emotionally
being ther. and always scolding raj when raj scolds me!!..
lol... I LUV U GUYS!!!.....
_______________________________________

thats the end of the suprise... but after dinner,, parents
and kanna headed back home,, the 4 of us decided to
hang out!!... we headed to somewher near marina
square... rajay had a quick meeting...

then we headed over to rajay's office... did i mention
i luv rajay's van... its soo colourful... soo many lights..
i have got a picture... i will upload it soon kaes....

then we went to east coast.. ther was suppose to be
a beach bar ther... but it closed down... so we just hung
out ther... trash talked... then trashed things out!!..
story for another day!!....

then rajay sent us all home!!...
_____________________________________

the captivating moments,, i'll nvr forget...

for me to know, for u to find out.

u'll find out!..

trust me!

the biggest risk is not takin any risk at all...

- rajay 29/8/08

2008-08-27T00:00:00.002+08:00

work was soooo slow today.... my pts were
all really stable and ther were sooo many staff...
time passed soo slowly... everyone were lookin for
things to do...

so boring.... i was just praying that time will go
faster.... after work i met my dearest liwen..
she wanted to go get a bikini... followed her
to far east... i bought 2 dresses... red... lol...

then i had to rush off... coz i was meeting rajay for
dinner... i kept laughing at him coz the 1st thing
i saw in facebook when i signed in yest was
"rajvinder singh has broken off wif sharin dev kaur"
lol..... "he's now single"...

he announced it already..... hahaha.... damn cute..
we went to farm mart... nice place... really good
food... it was the kinda place that the guys
(includin shania) would go to... they would also
luv the food ther....

after dinner.... we had ice cream... good!!....
rajay had cuppucino... so cute laarrs.... he tried
his best not to get the foam all over his beard...
haha... failed....

we left at around 11... then he played a tamil
song.. and started dancing to it!!...... hahaha....
such a anjadi!!... hahaha.....

thanks for the dinner rajay!!... and the ice cream
too.... and the ride back too... :)

i'm meeting my sweet heart on friday... hopefully
i can change my shift to morning k.... if not, i'll
do the really naughty thing.... lol...

hey sweetheart.... it feels like b4... :)... i hope this
makes u happy k.... no names!!... :)

okok.... gtg..... will blog tmr k.... :)

2008-08-25T23:35:00.003+08:00

heyhey....

spoke to sharania.... she wants to go missing...
spoke to thiru.... he wants to go missing too...
MANGAS!!!.... both crazy!!... sharania doesn't
want to take thiru's calls.... lol

thiru is now playing paattukku paattu at the
chalet... lol... said ther're loads of hot gals ther...
and he'll call us after the chalet is over IF HE
REMEMBERS US!!... wat an idiot!!...

this 2 should just live together... and don should
so make a movie out of their lives... it'll be a HIT
and it'll also be a big COMEDY!!.... haha....

sharania is also missing ching cheong!!... lol...
now she's being bullied by an extremely hand-
some but irritating dr... de... u might just fall in
luv wif him... haha....
_________________________________

ok... i'm officially crazy!!... just damn happy....
dunno why.... hahaha... u know i know can already
k??(u know who u r)... hahha.....

btw,, too many shocks rajay!!... can' t handle it!!...
lol.....

alot of highlights last weekend!!.... i already blogged
abt them... :).... and i think i irritated my best friend..
coz i was talkin tooo much!!....

i hope he doesn't go missing for the next 3 months
coz he keeps threatening me that he would.... :(...
urgh!!!.......

hmmm.... okokok... gonna call it a day!!... m tired!!
byebye

2008-08-24T02:00:00.001+08:00

heyhey,,
dinner today was good.... rajay and
i had dinner at the yacht club.... it was such
a nice place... loved the place... loved the food..
and loved the company!!.... :)

rajay... u have such an imagination... lol...
fireworks huh??... lol..... i will sooo be ther at
ur wedding... and we'll trash the best man
together ;).... the horse and the helicoptor...
hmmmm..... one word!!... WOW!....

now u know alittle bit more.... lol... thanks
for the flowers and the BEAR!!.. and the
chocolates too.... tks tks tks......

when we laugh.. the world laughs with us...
when we cry, we cry alone.....

i'll remember that!!...
_________________________________

FIREWORKS!!!.... really nice!!.... sharania kept
movin back thinking that the fireworks were
gonna hit her..... lol.... cute!!.... was wif sanjeevi,
sharania, thiru and eva.. thiru's friend taz joined
us for a while.....

we had thai express... love their curried soft shell
crab.... mmmm!!!.... and ya sanjeevi the dessert
was good.... lol......

we always nvr end up watching the midnight
movie... and seriously!!... thiru is hyper after meals...
was annoying him in the car!!... lol.....

ended up in bukit panjang wher we had to listen to
a malay guy sing... OMG... over and over again!!..
lol.... took a cab back.... cab driver got lost....
____________________________________

confusion.....

some ppl so clearly know wat they

want to do with their life...

who they wanna marry in their life....

wher they are gonna go in their life...

me?...

i dunno.... hmmm.... still deciding....

like thiru says....

i dunno u...

but i want u sooo bad!!...

i think thats how it goes.....

________________________________

ok.... gonna call it a day... really tired!!...

good night sweethearts!!.......

2008-08-22T17:12:00.006+08:00

roses from rajay... OMG... it

was a shock.... it was delievered to my ward...

u should have seen my expression!!.

lol... thanks rajay...

no more shocks pls... :)

_________________________________

some people come into our lives

and quickly go. Others stay awhile

make footprints on our hearts and

we are never ever the same...

-from Rajay

2008-08-19T22:10:00.004+08:00

there's a special place in my heart
that only u can touch
a place where i go and feel u near
throughout the day i think of u
i see ur smile, hear ur Voice
and in My thoughts U lovingly appeaR
the wAy we love each other
makes it hard to be apart
so when i can't hold u close to me
i hoLd u In my heart...

2008-08-19T02:40:00.001+08:00

160808- went to watch cardinal avenue in town
with sharania, thiru, kumaran and eva... they
were really good... i actually enjoyed myself,
even thou it was a rock concert!!... :).... and
btw,,,, paravai muniyamma learns rock was
awesome too!!... lol........

170808- went to work... was morning shift.....
came back at abt 4..... knocked out at 6 pm and
only woke up in the morning at 5.30.... but i
woke up in the middle to reply to a few msgs and
have dinner..... i was like a corpse.... for those
few hrs... lol....

180808- went for my excellence service award
training.... it was supper super super BORING!!..
i was messagin so many of my friends to keep
me awake!!.... haha..... after the course was suppose
to meet v.murai... but he finished late....

so i ended up meeting sd and sanjeevi.... had dinner
at crystal jade.... sanjeevi is vegetarian again.... hmm
how long its gonna last this time, no one knows... but
i think he's praying for someone... hope it comes true!
:)...

after that went for seesha at arab street.... nose and
throat hurt so much... lol... ended up having a terrible
migrain.... BUT SD!!!... chest pain and SOB(shortness
of breath).... 3 of us went to NUH.....

poor thing.... too many heartbreaks already!!... lol...
thats his explanation!!!...... stupid fellow blacked out
in the swimming pool.... aiyooooo.... friend pooled him
out!!!.... eh manjan!!... take care of urself can????......
urgh!!!....

just came back.... he should be fine!!....
______________________________________

v. murali... when a gal tells u "i luv u"...

u either say it back or smile or keep quiet!!...

dun say "thank you".... omg.... u suck!!!....

pavam la that gal... gather soo much of courage

to tell u that... and all u can say is thank you...

i think she heartbroken already.... pavam

pavam!!....

______________________________________

i need u back la... i know its difficult for u...

but its much worst for me when u're not

ther... only think of one name... u know

wat name it is... i just need u to be ther...

not physically... but just by calls and msgs..

not too much to ask for i guess...

i luv u too much to lose u in the middle..

u'll know the reason for everything one

day...

____________________________________

one with a promising future.....

one with so much love....

one with tears....

my choice?..

2008-08-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

tomoro i'm goin for a concert wif thiru
and sharania... according to thiru its a
dapanguthu concert... the name of it is
paravai muniyamma learns rock!!... lol....

sharania navalan!!!... lol... u're a

kupai!!... cherry tuquilla???!!.... sounds

good.... lol... i haven been clubbing in a

long time k... not 2 weeks... i think goin

to be more than 1 month... !!...

sanjeeviraj s/o rajoodevaraj!!.... u

suck!!!!.... i think i've seen ur father

more than i've seen u... i just saw ur

dad 2 days ago.. and u???... on the

25th last month... coz i clearly remb

that it was pay day!!!....

if u dun call me soon... I WILL

SERIOUSLY DISOWN U!!!.... GO

FIND URSELF ANOTHER BEST FRIEND!!...

need help finding... i know 1... go find SD...

he'll be a suitable candidate!!!..... urgh!!!

gogogogogogo!!!!......

sd was initialy a monkey!!.... the

army took him from the s'pore zoo...

did some tests on him to make him

human.... he did become human... but

the sadback was that he still looks like

a monkey...... lol....

ps: sd was the e 1 who told me this, i swear

i didn't make this up!!...

my chinese best friend is clubbing

tonight.... OMG... she was on MC yest...

for diarrhea and gastric!!... and see wat

she's doin tonight!!!... pig pig!!...

knows i'm morning tmr.. still call me....

:(...

happy belated birthday viki!!....

hope u had a good 21st!!... i hope

the curse comes true!!... u would

seriously love that won;t you????...

lol....

murali. v... u're such a light bulb....

leave raj and his gf along can.,...

can't live w/o each other rite
???,,,, first xiao!!... second,, dawson...

3rd... raj!!..... aiyoooooooo....

i still luv tajhn the best!!!!!....

working tmr....morning... dun

wanna go!!... :'(..

2008-08-12T23:08:00.002+08:00

heyhey.....
updating quite frequestly... dunno why...
maybe i'm just bored.... 1st day of work after 4
days of leave... really didn't feel like goin back to
workk..... haiz haiz... but i've got no choice... :(

went out on all four of my off days....

080808-
-woke up...
- met viki...
-went over to granny's place...
-met vasugi.. went for a walk..
- met murali v... still owes me..lol..
- met thiru and sharania for dinner...
-went home...

090808-
-woke up..
- slacked til abt 3 pm..
- met sharania, thiru, eva, kumeresh, kumaran,
don and seelan for dinner and drinks at cafe
iguana....
- watched fireworks...
- went to arab street for seesha... got addicted...
- went home...

100808-
- slacked at home till evening...
- went to town...
- made friend buy $149 lacoste shirt...lol.
sorry laars..
-watched journey to the centre of the earth..
-went home...

110808-
- slacked home....
- got scolding from mum for not goin marketing...
- went to causeway...
- watched love guru wif thiru and sharania...
freakin funno.... lol... chastity belt!!!...

that was wat i did for the 4 days... kinda boring...
but fun.. and i spent alot of money.... shit i hav to
start savin now!!!!!..... hmmmmmmmmmmmm......

sharania-..... dun be sad laarsss.... try and get the
number.... i know u can do it... lol.... i dun like the pic
of me in ur blog.... vry ugly... lol.......
______________________________________

u dun really play apart in my life anymore...

2008-08-12T00:05:00.005+08:00

how can everything revolve around a gal???...

does love really make someone a chicken?...

i know love n being loved is a great feeling....

but..... isn't ther a limit?....

i used to think... wow... he's really fighting

for the gal he luves... but after seeing how

she treats u(worst then rubbish)... i only

feel sorry for u.....

just to remind... u've got friends and family

who still need u ther... and ppl who luv u more

then then her.....

__________________________________

i think she lead u on... and u fell for it....

i'm sorry i actually encouraged u....

i feel really bad now.....

i know u'll get over it... u're strong person...

always making everyone laugh... and not showing

ur emotions out..... and u're a awesome musician...

we still luv u... :)

____________________________________

today i watched love guru wif sharania and

thiru.... it was freakin hilarious... OMG...

intimacy=

into-me-i see...

LOL...........its an awesome movie...

but i guess like wat thiru said... most of the manjans

did not understand the jokes at all... lol...

the 3 of of were laughing sooo loudly laars..

_____________________________________

messages to ppl-

sharania- ching chong cheong... waiting for my $8888....

lol....

thiru- think we've seriously traumatised u... sorry la....

SD- u freakin indian.... u listen to hindi songs... think kajol

hot and u went to tekka to meet ur friend.... OMG....

jeevi- happy birthday...

liwen- i owe u... sorry my dear!!....

xiaowei- i hope u figure things out... :).. love u if he doesn't...

vasugi- u're my dearest... love u love u.......

jumbi- i miss my goddaughter... how is she???.... :)

will come and see her soon..

______________________________________

m working tmr... haiz haiz... i dun want to go....

;'(........

2008-08-10T01:44:00.002+08:00

as i was walkin down that path,,, i just felt

like crying... but i couldn't.... coz there

were soo many ppl around me..... i could

only think of someone at that point of time.. and

it was my dearest....

realized that she was the only one whom i could

actually tell all of this to... even thou i

was at my lowest, she still made me laugh....

someone said.... this is all for u.... but

was it really for me?... i wonder....

_________________________________

i just feel like cryin..

2008-08-09T12:03:00.002+08:00

i turned 21 yest... hmmm... dunno if thats
suppose to make me happy!!... i didn't do
much yest... just went out to a few places...
thats abt it!....

someone told me that u dun need to have a
grand celebration... just needs to be meaningful..
hmmm... it was not grand for sure... but
meaning ful??...... i dunno....

liwen said.... uma celebrate!!!..... u'll regret if u
dun celebrate it... seriously.... she regretted
not celebrating... lol...... poor thing... she's
celebrating this year...
PS: really lookin forward to ur mismatch party!!...

wat i did yest!!....-
1)woke up....
2)met animal lover.. hence the roses... :).. tks
3)went to my granny's place... she was sick... haiz...
vasugi was ther.... my bestest cousin... lol...
4)then went to meet chicken shit.... lol... murali.v..
WHERE'S MY PRESENT???...... I WANT THE
AMOR AMOR PERFUME... OR SOMETHING ELSE
I THINK U KNOW WAT U WANT!!!!!!!........

5)went to meet thiru and sharania... at city hall...

had coffee at starbucks wif thiru's cousin raenu...

had dinner at thai express.... and sat down listen

to thiru sing and go crazy(OH NO) at esplanade!!....

6 went home.....

i was suppose to meet someone else in the evening...

but he couldn't make it last minute... so i was

prepared to go home... thats when darling thiru

called and asked to meet.... i LUV sharania and

thiru...... :)...

it was alrite... my birthday... i know i slept alot...

:)... but i still hope i have a better day today...

AND I'M NOT GOIN TO PAY FOR EVERYTHING...

IDIOTS.... LOL.....:)

2008-08-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VASUGI

AND PERIYAPPA!!!

today we went for dinner.. it was

varathan anna's treat... had dinner at swiss

hotel's merchant court......food ther was heavenly......

especially the durian cream... woah..

me and vasugi were simply in

luv wif it.... i had 2 servings of it.... i wish i

could have had more... but my stomach

would hav burst... lol......

i laughed sooo much today.... it was fun...

tomoro is my dad's birthday.... actually its

in another 10 minutes..... bringing my family out

for dinner.... RICE TABLE....

good food tmr toooo.... woah i luv their

food..... mmmmmm......... i'm goin to

become really really fat....... my ass is getting

really big... lol.... but somethings just remain small...

LOL.....

talkin abt small... sharania,,,, LOL.... i

think u know wat i'm talkin abt...

so cute.... i'm actually startin to notice it now!!...

all coz of thiru!!!... not my fault ah!!...

blame him!!!.....

haha... okok.. anyway.. gtg.. damn tired...

will blog tmr.... :)

_______________________________________

i'm disappointed...

:'(

u suck!

2008-08-03T16:16:00.002+08:00

wtf is wrong wif this ppl??????

UGRH....

FUCKIN SIMPLE ENG AND THEY DUN
GET IT!!!!!!

fuckin irritating!!!......

am in such a bad mood....

throw away ur phones....

no use.... u dun use them anyway....

no msges no calls....

fucking irritating,....

u need ppl to do everything for u...

why else do u think u're so damn

pathetic....

i hate u...

2008-08-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NURSES DAY!!

its nurses day and we still have to work...

sux!!!..

but it was not such a bad day...

my godfather came back.... wants

to adopt me.... came u believe it???....

lol... so cute.... hahahahahahahaha...........

i've got to work another 6 days till my off day!!..

:'(

i'm tired already!!....

____________________________________

missing sharania and thiru and the rest of the

group.... haven met them... the last time was

sharania's birthday i think..... everyone is busy...

haiz haiz......

and for sharania's birthday.. kums and seelan

were not ther also.... BTW... keep ur national

day free... PLS PLS...

sharania- u're off... u no choice but to meet us... lol!!

thiru- its a public hol... pls keep urself free on that k???

and dun pick a fight wif me on that day.....

seelan- keep away from soccer on that day... u said

told me that u'll keep urself free k... i'll complain to

indera!!!.....

don- if ther's no family thing,, u better come k...

kumaran- not bothered,,, u dun read my blog anyway!!

murale- MIA.... oh.. sorry sorry.. army!!... botak!!

_______________________________________

shamintha!!!... i want to meet u...

got sooo many things to tell u!!!!........

lol.... u''ll be shocked to hear everything.....

lol.....

_________________________________

ok... gonna sleep... blog soon.... :)

ps- seelan.. today nurses's day.. remb to giv

ur luvs (batam gal and AH gal) flowers... i remind u

already ah!!... hahahaha...... lol...

2008-07-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

i miss him.... :'(... my big santa claus.... he was
with us for 1 yr.. and even after he passed on,
we all felt that he was still wif us.... just felt his
presense....

he was sooo fatherly.... read my fortune and
told me that i would run away for love... and
i would marry a good man... a man who will
take care of me like a princess.... lol.....

all the nurses in the ward became part of his
family.... he celebrated his birthday and weddin
anniversary with us...

even thou he always used to scold... called us
monsters... said we were all trained to kill.. lol..
called us terminators... that was the brain tumour
talkin... :'(....

now it feels weird when, we dun see his name in
the census anymore...

MR DINESH CHANDRA MAHESHWARI
WE'LL MISS U!...
__________________________________

kwok liwen.... i know that u're upset... i'm ur indian

bestie remb??... it hurts i know.... dun worry too much

k..... we'll both go visit auntie Ila soon... and mansi

also.... told her to tell me if she's getting married...

and abt the guy,,,, if the ego means more to him,

then he not worthit....

__________________________________

u came back!!!.... love u.... :)

and thanks for also picking a fight wif me on the

phone.......:)....

__________________________________

conservative life vs independent life??...

which one would u choose??....

2008-07-27T22:13:00.005+08:00

bIrThDaY wIsHeS:

make my back pain go away...
go back 2 e old times...
laugh alot
make things rite again...
save
love the broken man...
and save the friendship...
NEW PHONE...
go on the flyer....
longg HUG
save the slut!

2008-07-27T22:13:00.002+08:00

its happening... all over again....

right or wrong?

I DUNNO...

u said u'll giv me time...

alot of time....

i can even make a decision

NOW...

but would i change myself ?...

thats a question i ask myself all the time...

just to let u know....

that day was 1 of the best days

of my life.... after along time...

the day i look at ur eyes is the

day u'll know my answer even w/o

me tellin u...

____________________________________________________________________

i knew it would happen...

just like i hoped it wouldn't...

just coz i cared and said things

u didn't want to hear.....

tks

2008-07-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

yest.... was sharania's birthday... it was fun...
sharania was a bad birthday gal... she rubbed
cake all over her face coz kumeresh, don, thiru
and eva were takin so long.... lol...

and eva even did an documentary on it... lol....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARANIA... OLD ALREADY..
ur birthday present is thiru.... lol....
__________________________________

finally met kumeresh yest after a long long time...
he sent me back home... lol.. he had to... no
other choice... hahaha.....

told him abt sharania's ahem ahem..... lol... coz she
told kumeresh that i was in luv with someone....
which is soo not true!!.... U PIG!!....
__________________________________

1st ther was 2.... and now ther is 1..... all

that i did was coz i was angry.... and sometimes

coz u deserved it!!.... u had to always bring some

things up!!.... something that was not necessary!!...

i feel like shit now... coz u're moving away... and

i can feel it... even thou i'm not in the wrong

sometimes, i end up apologising almost all the
time coz i dun wan this to end....

i encourage for everything??... hmmm... ya i feel

stupid now.... coz from the 1st time i said some

thing that i felt, "D" became ur soul and wat did

i become??...

___________________________________

we came together for something we luved.. we

did well.. rocked well... but ther came a point

wher we enjoyed each other's company more

that the thing that we luved..... certain realised

it.. but some didn't....

we luved the same thing... but we had different

goals for it... even thou u think u gav me shit

stuff to play.... i still enjoyed doin wat i did coz

i could still play.....

if u think i came, coz i enjoyed the grp, thats

true partially!!... but the main reason was coz i

could do wat i luved doin!!...

now wat u can do, as the person who brought

us all together is call(dun msg, nvr works)

everyone, arrange for everyone to sit down

n talk abt wat their goals are.....

if it doesn't work out, then at least u tried!!...

it feels like a silent break UP!!... just coz i wrote

this on my blog doesn't mean, u save on that

call... I"LL BE WAITING!!.... FOR THE CALL

NOT THE MSG....

i luv u la :).....but i still hate u alot....

_________________________________

BIRTHDAY WISH:

1) PEACE

2) 2 laugh alot!!!

3) DIE

2008-07-18T04:31:00.002+08:00

LAST NIGHT!!!!..... yai!!!... FINALLY!...
can't wait to sleep at night... haha.. not doin
anything much this weekend... so i'll just end
up sleepin alot....

goin out latr at night... wif my clubbing khaki..
lol.... kwok liwen... we'll be havin sakae buffet
1st.... then heading over to our fav hangout...
DOUBLE O... lol...

anybody wan to join???.....

excited... even thou i'm broke... lol.... sat is NUH's
Mass Casualty exercise... URGH!!... have to
be on standby... why does it hav to a day when
i'm on day off... haiz haiz....

its goin to be 5... and i'm sooo sleepy.. doin this
to keep myself awake..... ;) i read everyone's blog
over and over again to see if i didn;t get anything
right!!... lol... this is wat happens when i get bored..

was able to understand everyone's blog... EXCEPT
THIRU!!!!.... aiyo.... dun get it at all.... i highlighted
everything.... lol....
____________________________________

i'm getting used to it... and i'm happy... u nvr
know... 1 day u might not even exist in my life!!...

2008-07-15T04:46:00.002+08:00

1st night...
haiz haiz... so tired... feel like sleepin..
so i'm doin this to keep myself awake...lol
liwen is also on night... was tallkin to her
on the phone....

goin out wif her to sakae this friday... for
buffet... lol... yai!!!.... miss my tako yaki and
fried tofu..... :).... i'm goin broke... haiz haiz...
waiting for my pay... 10 more days... ;)

zzz zzz zzz zzz..... 3 more hrs to go.... time is
passing sooo slowly... haiz haiz... i hate nights..
but i like my weekends off.... even thou i'm
not doin anything this weekend...
________________________________

messages...

sharania- ur birthday comin already... OH NO...
getting older... lol... its ok... u'll not be as old as
don....

thiru- i miss jamming... and i MISS my trumpet..

don- MIA mama.... thu

seelan- unnaku indera matum than... thappika
mudiyathu... lol

liwen- u owe me a treat...sakae or double o this
friday??... lol

sd- VENGE UR ANGER HOTLINE... lol.. r u serious?

alvin- still rotting at home??.. ur friends hav
abandoned u??... lol

v.murali- u suck!!.... i hope u hated hancock!!...

2008-07-12T01:15:00.001+08:00

work is killing me... i've been afternoon shift
for the past few days and i'm only goin home
at 11.30pm nearly 12.... my legs are aching...
nearly fainted once... coz bp went really low..

i dunno how long more i'm goin to last... some
times.... i just start crying..... and even when
i cry, i still have to continue doin my work....
coz we really have no time...

i hate it... and sometimes ppl make it worst...
ur friends and family just nvr understand....
when i'm at work, i pray time goes faster so
that i can get home, asap and rest.... and wat do
i get??....

no peace.... no rest... i only get more angry.....
dun bother arguing anymore... coz whenever i
raise my voice, starts crying and complains... and
then i have to go thru more naggin.....

its not like others make it anybetter..... all that
sacarsm and shit... ther's a limit to everything...
and i'l only be able to handle it to a certain extend.
____________________________________

sometimes i think u thrash talk more than u actually
make sense... and i'm disappointed.... :(.. u
know why... so dun come and ask me why... just to
let u know, u suck at everything....
____________________________________

u're moving away... its obvious... and i'm moving away
.... so double the moving... faster the seperation....
____________________________________

2008-07-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

happy youth day!!..... to everyone....
lol..... except to dar mama and seelan... they're
old..... 23 and 25... uncles.... sorry guys....

1 good news to share.... i m gettin the excellent
service award from nuh.... lol... can't believe
it.... hahaha... i was laughing my head of when
my ward sister told me........
_________________________________

THIRU....... i dun smile and frown at the same
time..... stop saying that la.... urgh... manga.....
u're a panni!!!.... and a tortise!!!!... go back to
ur shell la... and ya la... i miss u.....

and sharania.... pls eat properly la... duck!!
(i nearly typed dick!!)... lol..... or i'll end up
buying u lots of chocolate and make u fat again!!...
_________________________________

spoke to my slut last night... had a good talk.... i'm
happy... finally got to understand... realized that
both of us are confused ppl... lol.... we realized that
we need to settle alot of stuff... lol....

nvm la... we'll work it out... :)...
________________________________

since everyone is in luv wif everyone.... i'm also
in luv wif everyone... lol... i luv all of u.... :)..
luv luv luv luv luv luv luv luv luv luv luv luv...
lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol....

2008-07-05T00:08:00.002+08:00

i miss cnl.... happened to meet an old friend....
and he was from cnl... awesome percussionist...
rich... nice guy... funny.... lol.....

told each other we'll meet up soon.....:).. miss
playing.... playing 1st trumpet... solos... songs that
i really enjoyed... concerts... FLOWERS.... batons...
alumnis..... mr tan....

haiz haiz.... dun have that feelin anymore.... althou
i still play, its not the same feelin anymore.... coz
i've lost the touch... lost the doubles... last time
practise was impt everyday.... now?... no comments.

miss my evil counterpart charlene... haha... it
was fun... i could nvr forget those times.... :)....
____________________________________

i officially quit... u know wat to do if u wan me
back.... dun msg.... coz i won't be bothered to reply..
:)

2008-07-04T01:33:00.001+08:00

i dunno why u're back.... i dunno wat u want...
and i dunno why u said all those things that
day.... i was seriously hopin that u would stop
talkin... but u didnt.... i'm not confused... just
feel akward.....
___________________________________

someone told me this once, actually many times..
gals go back to the guys who hurt them the most...
he doesn;t make sense most of the times la...
for once it hit me that wat he said was true....... ;)
and i'm not goin to make that mistake......
___________________________________

u chickened out!!... i know... distraction???... that
was a lie... wher did all the nice words come from??
ur penis??.... ya... probably!!.... u are such a jerk...
i wish i had nvr met u!!.....
___________________________________

when i talk, i hurt u... so i just stopped talking....
u happy?..
___________________________________

mistakes happen... and it all ends now... the only
thing i feel for u is broke.... thats it!!.... u're not
even worth my tears....
___________________________________

so much hate and so much anger... and all or who?
a bunch of idiots who dun evenunderstand u....
urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... i'm becomin thiru!!!!.....
lol........

messages---

sanjeevi- go marry rajeh when u're 28... u dun even
bother nowadays...

sharania- giv dog or snake a chance la.... DUCK!!..

gorilla and moose- date me!!! miss u guys....

***- i dun feel sorry anymore...

darmama- thanks uma for being understandin???... lol
u think u have won the oscars is it??... lol.. can u can figure
this one out???

shamintha- u read my blog??... i'm shocked... lol... i need
to meet u soon... lol... alot to bitch abt.....

sd- u're nice... but u just hav to trust me more.....

alvin- date on the dam?... or just double o?...lol

trevour!!!!- MIA......

2008-06-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

my animal story...

once a upon a time, there was a pig.... she was a
really soft hearted pig... she had vry little sad-
ness in her life.... she was always happy, and
always tried to make the ppl around her happy..

she would nvr hurt anyone, even if it meant
hurting her.... but one day she met a tiger... the
tiger was initially her classmate... but they had a
fight over food and stopped talkin to each other...

then after they started sharing their food, they
became friends again.... and this time they were
close.....

pig met someone whom she really liked,,, he was
an ox..... he was nice... and they thought things
would work out, BUT situations were such that
it was over.....

pig and tiger went thru alot of ups and downs
together.... to the extend wher, tiger became a cat
and pig was still the same person... but she went
thru her 1st heart break... told her self that for the
next 5 years, she would have to concentrate on
other impt stuff.....

pig moved on and met a group... a group that she
would nvr wanna lose in her life... ppl who were
always ther for her... and if she didn't meet them
to have cereal prawns, she would feel damn sad...

the group consists of- a tortise, a rabbit, a duck,
a monkey, a crocodile and a seal whom she had a
bit of a misunderstandin.... she loved all of them...

then tiger had a friend, the chicken.... he was also a
nice person... he liked the pig... pig gave the chicken
a chance.... it worked out pretty well... until the
chicken got distracted....

this was pig's 2nd heartbreak.... pig changed....
she wasn't soft anymore.... she became a wildbore....
was really unhappy.... she didn't hav any reason to
be nice anymore....

as u know wildbores, love to hurt ppl... she did the
same... in the process, she hurt alot of ppl.... to tell
u the truth, she hurt ppl who were always ther for
her,,, like her group of friends especially the tortise
and another good friend the cow......

alot of ppl hav now come back into her life, but she's
afraid of losing the ones she already has......

she misses gorilla and the moose....

the pig is now goin to apply for something that she
always wanted to do... hope swami is with her.....:)
____________________________________

i really killed the animal planet in my story... lol...
____________________________________

msg to the duck- pig does not like anyone now... she
swears... :)....

msg to tortise- sorry k...

msg to monkey- m happy for u... its a start...

msg to the ox- i believe in fate....

msg to the chicken... the msg i sent u, i wished u had
replied... but its ok.. NDP is more impt....:)

2008-06-26T05:24:00.002+08:00

heyhey....
i'm BACK..... 3 rd night.... :)....
one more night to go... any way payday was
yest... and i feel broke already... coz last month
i was on annual leave so this month i take home
lesser.... haiz haiz.....

i'm mia now... my friends are all complaining...
lol... not my fault la... sorry... on night... and i
only sleep and work and eat.... no time for
anything else....... lol...

i'm seriously bored now... dunno wat to do...
lol... another 3 more hrs to go.....
__________________________________

animal lover,,, u're such a manga.... u go on a date
wif a gal and u talk abt another gal.... OMG.....
u ah!!!..... thats why she wasn't interested....
hahaha..... aiyo aiyo....

u bring her out, then if the place is nice, then
i come the next time, lol..... and we can go
by cab... lol.... or i'll just buy u an ezlink card...
__________________________________

okok... gtg now... byebye..... can't wait for the
weeekend... lol...

2008-06-25T05:03:00.002+08:00

heyhey.....
2nd night today.... damn tired
already.... my back pain is back......haiz haiz....
feel like crying.... wasn't able to blog yest...
vry busy... i only left the ward at 9.... haiz...

i really can't wait for saturday and sunday...
so excited..... :)... 2 more nights to go... hope
it ends soon.... can't wait....:)

actually i dun really like night shifts... coz
nothin beats sleepin at night... even if its for
short hours... but i guess i just have to do it
coz 1stly i earn more and 2ndly i get my
weekend's off....... and i'll do anything to get my
weekends off... :)

i miss CNL... dunno why.. for some reason...
i really used to enjoy playing for them... and
all their concerts were all awesome....

especially the one wif australian composer
ralph hulgren... i miss him... and all of them..
:'(

want to go back ther one of this days... any
way they've been askin me to go back and
play wif them for the next concert.... :)
________________________________

mistakes end ther... not doin anything any
more... coz i really luv this friend ship....
and wouldn't want anything to sabotage
it.....

even if at the age of 30, i'm still single,,
i would still have a friend..... :) and i rather
hav a friend...
_______________________________________

last good news... PAY DAY!!!!!!

2008-06-22T14:36:00.000+08:00

doin things that r not right... but i'm still doin
them anyway... probably coz they make me
happy..... but this happiness lasts only for a
while....

after that i go back to being the confused person
that i always have been....

wat i need is, someone who understands me...
someone who knows wat i'm thinkin just by
lookin at my face... someone who needs me to
be ther.... someone who doesn't hav his ego in his
relationship.....

and someone who reminds me alot... :).... i dun
think thats alot to ask.... and i'm sure u can giv
it all.... coz i've just described u......

and the last thing is that i'm sick of being wat i
am now.... always number 2.... i had enough.....
with family... with friends.... with everyone....
___________________________________

i'm suprised that someone actually took the time
to analyse my blog... lol... and u figured it out
quite well..... i dunno if u'll be able to figure this
one out....

if u're able to, lets just keep it between us k?...
thanks.....

i hope u tell me soon.... :) but i'm not forcing u....
:)
____________________________________

hey, u're not even my friend, and u have no right
to get angry wif who i go out wif..... wher i go....
wat i wear.... wat time i come back...

ba.si.ca.ll.y... mind ur own business ASSHOLE....
____________________________________

thats it for now... wil blog tmr... night tmr again...
:)

2008-06-20T03:44:00.002+08:00

heyhey...
blogging again.... :)... last night... yai!!!
i'm goin to have 3 days off... friday sat and sun..
am goin to sleep as long as i can... coz i'm doin
night again next week....

spoke to sharania yest morning.... talked for abt
an hour... and she told me alot of things... lol..
the seelan one was the funniest....

SHARANIA WE SHALL MATCH MAKE THEM...
i think she'll be the perfect package for him.. lol..
he's sooo gonna kill me... hahahaha.....

i can't wait for next weekend also... sooo excited..
hahahaha...

msg to shiva- u better be ther for the bbq, or not
i'll come to ur grandmother's house and drag u all
the way to pasir ris... understand... ask sharania,
i'm vry violent nowadays.....
___________________________________

sharania thinks i hav got anger management
issues.. lol... not my fault la... i dunno why i'm
like that also.... sorry la...

emotional blackmailer.... move on la.... can u pls
stop living in the past... u want to be 17 for ever
ah???.... i can't believe u actully remb all this stuff...

aiyo.... (hitts head)....
___________________________________

i'm confused.... haiz haiz.... should i or should i not...
god pls save me!!!......
___________________________________

i still believe in karma...

2008-06-19T05:25:00.002+08:00

heyhey...
i'm bloggin again... lol... like usual
i'm really sleepy now... and i'm doin this to keep
myself awake... :)

sharania thought i was goin to throw a fit and I
DID.... just for ur info, its not abt the money...
i'm just angry coz we planned it quite a while
ago... and u seem to have conveniently said that
u can't come!...

haiz haiz... wat is wrong wif this ppl??... annoyin
pieces of shit!!!...

anyway... i didn;t aleeo vry well yest, coz i woke
up many times in the middle...

11am- went to sleep
12pm- hungry
1 pm- thiru msged
2 pm- another asshole called
3 pm- was feelin cold, woke up
4pm- mum woke me up and asked
wat i wanted for dinner...

haiz haiz... in all i didn't sleep la.... i'm goin to
overdose myself wif piriton latr.. lol...

sanjeevi is doin guard duty... so he's also
awake... and damn sleepy... lol........
_________________________________

messages to ppl-

sanjeevi- go and sleep la...

shrania- i dunno why u said he was pavam...

thiru- update ur blog manga.....

don- DON..... come BACK......

v.murali- still alive??...

okok... gtg.... wil blog tmr,,,, :)

happy anniversary... lol....

2008-06-18T05:03:00.004+08:00

heyhey....
can't believe i'm blogging soo soon...
lol.... i'm bored... its my second night today...
2 more nights to go... haiz haiz... really tiring..
i feel like sleepin....

i'm tryin to keep awake by blogging.....

anyway,,, yest was a bad day at work... urgh!!..
got blamed for something i didn't even do.. its
really not fair... sometimes this is the reason i
hate working....

new system, everyone has to learn slowly... my
seniors didn't know how to do it... and i'm the
one gettin scolded... really sux... urgh!!!..... i
seriouly hate her....

urgh!!!... nvm..... forget it.....
_________________________________

are u still im malaysia or u dead already... faster
come back la... (this msg is to 2 ppl)... u know
who u r.... miss u both already....
_________________________________

some ppl are seriouly jackasses.... we do this for
them and they can't come last minute... its
seriously annoying... and u're the one who wanted
this in the 1st place...

emo freak.... u seriously annoy me most of the
time... and i actually even thought of being nice
to u....

nvm if karma come back to me.... I'LL NOT BE
NICE TO U ANYMORE.... URGH!!!!....... HATE
U!!!!!!!!.....
___________________________________

sorry.... i'm really tired and goin crazy... wil blog
tmr... byebye

2008-06-17T05:21:00.000+08:00

heyhey...
i'm on night this for the next 2 weeks...
goin to be really tiring... but who cares.. i get my
weekends off for the next 2 weeks... YAI!!!... :)

anyway i miss alot of ppl at the moment... they
are:-

1) sanjeevi- i miss him... even thou i spoke to him
like just 3 hrs ago... lol...

2) thiru- this manga is in malaysia... and all of us
didn't meet this weekend, think all of us miss
each other... :(

3) DON- dar mama is in india.... for now we dun
hav to listen to him don... lol... but we still miss
himm... and no more drama for a while.... lol
happy father's day mama.....

4)sharania- know she's still around... her presence
can be heard... lol...but like i said, we didn't meet,
so i miss her too.... :)

5) audi guy- lol... miss him and his car also... lol...
he's goin to kill me when he sees me coz i i wished
him happy father's day....... and told hin that his
prospective wife will be the package... lol..

6)kumaran- studyin hard,, dun get to see him as
often as the rest...

7)chechi- miss her... she's always full of laughter...
:)... dunno when she's comin back... hope she comes
back soon... :)

hmmm... these are all the ppl i miss for now.... :)

i'm waiting for the weekends to come... so exciting...
meeting most of my friends... :)
_____________________________________

hurt my back on sunday... me and another friend
tried to lift an extremly heavy pt... and he suddenly
feel back... but we managed to catch him, then i
heard a clinking sound on my back..... and i told
myself, "SHIT, its broken!!"....

havin pain ever since.... takin painkillers... haiz haiz..

can't stand or sit for long.. workin wif the pain is
worst... coz u still hav to list all the heavy patients...
:'(
____________________________________

i'm disappointed... haiz...serves me
right for askin too much... :'(
_____________________________________________

i'm sick of all the nonsense...

2008-06-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

i'm done tryin to make things work...
tell me abt changing... i'm fine as i am now... i dun
need anything from u anymore.... coz i think i've
lost more than gained from u...

ppl tell me that i'm stupid... for havin u in my life...
i always thought that it was wrong.... but i realized
last night that i dun mean anything to u... or maybe
i nvr did...

u're not the same person i knew 3 yrs ago... and its
sad to know that....

its disappointing that i only mean something to ppl on a
certain date.... :'(
________________________________________

many ppl have complained to me abt work... and i have
complained alot abt how hard it is to work as a nurse...
mentally tiring... physically draining... and SO much
responsibility...

and ppl think its a really easy job... that anyone can go
into it... and the worst thing of all,, they think that its
f***ing easy to pass all the exams... if u really think so,
i dare u to try it...

after saying all of this, the only thing keeping me goin
at this point of time is work... coz everything else seems
to be down...
_______________________________________

i'm invisible to some and a spare tyre to the rest...

2008-06-09T00:03:00.002+08:00

my niece's 1 yrs old birthday party.. :)

her birthday cake.... this is only half the size..

she's damn cute la....

my dad playing wif her...

me and vasugi camwhoring as usual... lol...

told u my mum had a deprived childhood.... lol..
she wanted to become a princess... lol...

my cousins... this is only 1/3 of them... lol...
the guys really can't smile... OMG....

they should learn how to smile from us... lol....
_____________________________________

today went to work... was still feelin damn upset
abt yest... just sucked.... sometimes these r the
reasons u dun really want to work anymore.... verbal
abuse..... haiz ....

f***ing idiot came in wif 101 tubes u know... he stayed
forover 2 wks... didn;t get any sort of infection... didn't
even hav to clean himself for 2 weeks... evrything was
done for him....

and wat did he say in the end???... the nurses tried to
kill him and that only the doctors saved his life... and
we didn't even do anything for him.... ****.....

today when he went back,, he didn't even need a
wheelchair.... who were the ones who really attented
to his needs???.... he scolded every single nurse in
the ward... and we didn't say anything,,, we just
went thru wif it.....

we nurses... dun ask for anything... just a simple
thank you would make our day... and wat do we get
in return???... bull shit!!!.... urgh....

i was really upset...

____________________________________

anyway... abt the happy part,,, it was my niece's
birthday...... she's one... lol.... damn cute...
she looked like a princess.... hahaha......

i luv her.... met all my cousins.... miss them so much...

_____________________________________

met up wif don and kumaran and sharania today,,,,
laughed like mad.... hahaha.... love my friends......
missed thiru thou... poor fellow has got a swollen jaw..
love u thiru..... :)
____________________________________

i'm confused.......

2008-06-02T00:40:00.017+08:00

my goddaughter nandhanaa....

my dad playing wif her... lol....

my niece... her name akshaya... always reminds

me of akashic records.... lol... damn cute.....

me.... camwhoring.... lol.....

my mum..... showing everyone that she's got a

deprieved childhood.... lol.... she brought back

all the balloons... lol.....

his name is aakash... came over from nowher

and hugged me... lol... cute.... didn't know who's kid

he was....

me again..... lol........

_____________________________

today was my goddaughter's namin ceremony...

so cute.... i had fun..... all my aunties were lookin

for a man for me.... ANNOYING.... urgh....

______________________________

yest was my best friend sanjeevi's birthday.....

met many ppl yest.... it was fun.... they made me

dance wif murali... haha...i made a fool out of myself...

lol......

i'm goin to kill u thiru.... if i see that video of me on

youtube... u're soo dead... i'm goin to upload a video

of u singing wif ur constipating face.... and u seelan...

acting cute......

if i die... all of u die me... lol

the party was really good.... happening family... lol

met ppl whom i've lost contact for over 2 yrs.... :)

sanjeevi had a lot of fun... and u could really see that

the parents were all having fun.....:)

i luv u best friend...

____________________________________

friday... i had a long night out... first i went to o bar...

4 gals... we really enjoyed ourselves.... then i headed

over to rupy room..... punjabi club.... damn nice....

sd... u're officially only white on the outside... u're

tamilan la u.... dance to hindi music all... lol

then i headed over to another place... can't remember

the name already..... lol... became crazy... lol....

in all... i had a great time for the past 3 days... lol

_____________________________________

there a oldschool saying that states that nurses r hot...lol....

(somebody told me the saying... but told me i wasn't hot..

PIG!!)

i missed u too... :)

2008-05-30T01:07:00.002+08:00

when ther's 2 things that u really want in ur life...

but u know that both the things, u can't have at

the same time... wat do u do?...

both the things play a really impt part in ur life.

at the same time, without this 2 things, u probably

won't hav laughter in ur life...... wat decision do u

make??...

if u choose either one of it, it would be with u for

the rest of ur life.... so which ever u choose, u hav

to want it to be with u for the rest of ur life.....

which would u hav?

u also know that u wouldn't be able to live w/o

both the things....

so.. the last question is... if u can't hav both, would

u giv up both?.....

I"M A DAMN CONFUSED

SOUL!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

messages to ppl:-

sanjeevi- i'll try to be more like my father than
my mother.... if i can.... i'm sorry... will
be nicer next b'day..... love u.....

sharania- she's starting work.... and she wants to
kill pts already... gd job sharania...

murali.v- i'm complaining to tajhn, that is if i get to
see him and if i get to talk to him... but i
want to giv him a hug.... he's cute... ;)

thiru- i dun wan u dead la k.... just that whenever
i'm damn irritated, u happen to be ther....
doesn;t mean that i dun luv u... kaes???

don- i will nvr forget the dance u did yest... still in
my head.... hahaha... damn cute.... u should
dance more often... lol

jayseelan- i have that video of u acting cute.... lol..
next time u introduce any package to
us, i show her kaes???.... hahaha.....

gin and mel- DATE ME!!!!!!!!!......

AR- i think u should change the band's genre to the
songs that u did in don's house yest... nicer...
lol.... me and saani enjoyed ourselves... don can
dance... seelan wil put taalam(beat)... thiru wil
bounce like wat he was doin on the bed yest
and sing also.... lol...... hahahahaha........

sd- welcome back!!... waiting for my mango drink...
lol....

trevor- still owe u a hug!!... :)

rajeh- HAPPY 23th BIRTHDAY......

LOST TOUCH..

2008-05-27T11:36:00.000+08:00

:'(

2008-05-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

I KNOW THAT U WILL READ MY BLOG.....

can i have the phone pls?... lol....

pls pls pls..

________________________________

happy birthday DAR MAMA.....

u're 25... quickly get married.......

2008-05-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

May 19th....... hmmmm...... its vesak day!!!.....

lol.... ther's more to may 19th then just vesak

day, of COURSE.... lol... but i'm not goin to tell....

had a great day today.... met my gd friend (who's

name i'm not suppose to mention)... we went to

my cousin's house to see my newborn niece....

NANDHANA.....

love her.... she's sooo cute.... my mum keeps

sayin that i'm a kodumekare sithi(torturing aunty)

..... lol.....

then me and my friend went to meet another

friend Viki.... the animal lover.... wanna know why??

the cat was actually a stray cat.... lol... it fell in

love with him.... it was following him everywher....

it was really cute thou.... the worst part was that

he hates cats.... lol.......

vikneshwaran to viknesh to viki to vik... to v... lol...

trust me.... i'm gettin more out of u... u're sooo dead...

i had a great time today... laughed nonstop... got

abit crazy.... finally met someone who has the same

graphic mind as me... :)

gtg.... will blog soon.....

i'm glad i wasn't alone today... :)

EMPTY FEELING...

2008-05-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

i'm a mess now..... i think i need anger management
classes.... hmmm.... all the stupid arguments...
misunderstandings..... just need them to all go away..

sometimes when i'm angry, i tend to say things that
i dun really mean..... and it tends to hurt the other
party alot.... i'm really sorry k.....

urgh.... i hate myself for this.... i wish i could go back
to being the person last time... who's anger tolerance
was much much better than now....

now i get angry over everything, URGH!!..... i get
stressed ovr evrything.... STRESS INCREASES THE
POSSIBILTY OF GETTING A MYOCARDIAL
INFARCT (heart attack).....

haiz haiz.... i'm sorry... :'(

i luv this picture.....

if u really think u understand me, u're wrong...

i'm startin to hate u...

2008-05-11T02:44:00.003+08:00

work was tIring today.... i had soo Many dIscharges...
urgh... and i had a really rude pt... he Screamed at me
and i nearly cried.... but the family memberS were
really nice.... :)

after work i went to meet the tHiru and sharanIa....
we went to orchard to do some shopping... but wasn't
really in the Mood to Shop... dunnO why... was just
tired i guess... then Met Up wif don for thiru to
praCtise for tmr....

seelan couldn't make it.... He was really sick... but
after all the practising, We went near seelan's house
to meet him.... had dinner.. and then we went to
seelan's house.....

the house is really nice.... i luv his room..... :)

_______________________________________

nobody really understood this part... and it's
disappointing..... after so much we've been thru...
this is wat i get in return?...

now i really know wat u're all abt.... :'(

2008-05-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

1st RIP pt..... urgh!!!...... hate it....... 2 yrs of
clean record.... and its marked..... haiz haiz....
but the aunty died peacefully..... DNR also......
telemetry is the best things the hosps have
invented......

without it we wouldn't have known that the
pt was having a heart attack.... and by the time
we got to her it was -----------------------------
asystole------------------------------------------

haiz haiz......

its not easy.... coroners case..... urgh!!!.... had a
bad day at work.... :'(

worst still... can someone kill that manjan bitch
from the manjan ooru??..... not being racist or
anything.... just that i can't stand her.... bloody hell....

just coz pt's did not come in my time its my fault??....
the pt was admitted 9.05,,, i'm off duty already and
i've to take the case????.... U CAN JUST DREAM
ON!!!...

i already pass over already.... damn it!!!....
URGH URGH URGH..... i sooooo hate u!!!!........
i hope u'll have a terrible night shift today!!!!.....

urgh!!.. sorry.... i'm just soooo angry!!!......

nvmnvm.....

anyway... i'm off on sunday... can't wait!!..... i 'm
goin to go BOO thiru's performance!!.... lol......
haha.... gd luck guys!!!.... luv u!!.......:)

2008-05-06T20:16:00.000+08:00

today was a reallly bad day.... i had a AMS
pt... altered mental status pt.... she was really
annoying..... she was sooooo aggressive and violent...
vulgarities came out from her mouth like water...
all in the TAMIL........

OMG.... old lady somemore..... she whacked me when
i was trying to restrain her... scratched my junior
and called my house keeper a prostitute... lol....

and i was soo damn tired.... was stoning already...
and i also had to listen to her nonsense.... i was
tired coz of late night conference... lol

and wat were we talkin abt???.... somethings i
didn't want to know... but was still curious.... lol..
and in the end,, i had disgusting pistures in my
head......... OMG......

me and sharania were just trying to irritate thiru...
and in the end,,, we ended up feeling disgusted.....
eeeeeeeeeeee....................... thiru said that me
sharania are not gals.... the whole grp treats us as
boys...lol......

the stupid picture is still stuck in my head.....URGH!!...

hmmmm......

yuck yuck yuck!!!..... thiru and sharania,,, i'm goin
to kill u for putting those pictures in my head.....

:)

2008-05-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

i luv them..... we rocked on saturday!!!.....

i had to be in the picture with him.....

SIO's youngest player.....:)

me and sharania at the start of the day....

at the end of the day..... lol.....

my rukkumani solo player.... luv him,

luv his car too...... ;)

my pervertic friend!!!..... we looked alike on sat....

i like this pic..... thiru thinks that the aunty behind

me looks damn HOT!!.......

____________________________________

AR performed in suntec on sat... and it rocked.....

the band had alot of chemistry.... luv all the fellows......

after the performance and all the drama(F***).... we

all hanged out at a bar near seelan's house... it was only

us and a few other ppl... all of us were goin mad!!.... lol...

sharania had her mouth on fire!!... lol... and kumaran

was emotional..... ;)

my dearest DON promised me that if i remain single

till 31st dec 2008,, he WILL tell me the truth abt who he

luves!!....(the light gal)......... grinns..... he is soooo dead!...

i really enjoyed myself on that day!!.....:)

_______________________________________

on friday night,,,, i went to meet gin and melissa..... at

st james.... met gin's chindian physiotherapist bf and his

friend rahul.... lol... rahul was sooo wasted... hahaha....

damn cute!!..... but a little bit scary...

can't believe he paid $117 for a tower of beer..... and

became the celebrity of the night... damn cartoon...

lol.....

i luved the live band!!.... kinda reminded me of AR... havin

fun at the same time sounding good.... luv them!!... :)

okok... gtg.... stoning already......

2008-04-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

i like to pretend that everything's alright...

because when everybody else thinks u're fine,

sometimes you forget for a while that you're not...

i've pretended too much....

and it really hurts.....

i choose to cry...

i choose not to speak,

coz its easier hiding the pain...

:'(

2008-04-26T18:43:00.000+08:00

heyhey....
i know i just blogged yest.... its rather
suprising that i'm blogging now.... but i'm really happy
today.... :)... not too sure why!!....

thought abt loads of things today... some of my friends
made me come to my senses... although some of them
can be FON (just kidding..).... i kinda just realized
how much we actually care for each other....

and also how much they care for me...:)

although some only seem to call me on my pay day...
(ooops... lol)..... there are some ppl who really care...
and i'm glad to know i got to know ALL of them!....

:)

although alot of stuff has happened over the last few
months.... it made us closer... and i'm sorry to say
this.... but i'm glad it happened.....
(i know i'm ponna bastard... lol)

Messages to ppl:-

sanjeevi- nvr goin to get close to anybody u introduce
me to.... coz it always either ends up hurting
me or annoying me!!.... u're enough for me!..

Sharania- faster get well la... go see a doc.... u better be
well by sunday.... we're goin out.... k???....

Thiru- i know i irritate u alot... but i still luv u alot k...
and i do not want any PILLS from u!!...

DON- i hope u get married to the light gal... we'll try
and help.... lol

Audi guy- i think u're the only one who's not EMO...
stay like that k.... dun change.... :)...

Taxi friend- MIA... thank god.... lol...

Trevor- i owe u a hug!!... :)

ok... thats it for now.... gtg..... byebye

2008-04-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

heyhey...
4 good news to share today.... lol

1) PAY DAY!!!!!..... yai!!!!.....

2) its my last night today... i get my weekends
off....

3) JAMMING today.....

4) cousin has given birth to healthy baby gal!!....

lol..... i'm really happy today... i'm rich... i'm a
proud aunt... i'm meeting my friends today...
and i'm off for the next 3 days... yai!!!.....

i'm goin to enjoy myself..... lol.... am excited to
meet seelan and DON... i'm not excited to meet
u thiru!!... lol.... i'm goin crazy... we're all doing
crazy stuff at work today......

all my patients are stable... sleeping well... thats
why i'm sooo free.... (touch wood)... having a
happy last night!!.... :)

sharania is goin to start work on monday.... gd
luck to her... hope she enjoys her last 2 days
of her holiday!!..... :)

okok.... gtg.... need to go do bld transfusion....
hmpf!!!.... :'(...

2008-04-23T02:00:00.000+08:00

heyhey.....
i'm on night this week... that means
that i get my weekends off..... yai!!!.... its been
quite long since i got my weekends off... so i'm
really looking forward to it!!..........

murali is back..... he went all the way to Taiwan...
n bought me a army shirt as a souvenir... can u
believe it???.... ARMY SHIRT!!....... lol.....

i went out on sun wif sharania and thiru.... it was
a weird day... lol... talked nonsense.... OMG...
i really pity THIRU'S wife!!... lol...... she's goin
to be so physically exhausted.... lol....

sorry thiru.... couldn't resist.... but i still love u
k!!!.....

anyway,,, my phone has officially spoiled... i cant
make calls properly.... after a while it just switches
off on its own..... i want the NEW PHONE..... :'(...

ok... i'm goin to go slp now.... wil blog soon....

love hurts
but sometimes it's a good hurt
and it feels like I'm alive
love sings
when it transcends the bad things
out of heartache,
try me cause without love I won't survive